May 15, 2006

1000

Talked to TT tonight. There were over one thousand people at sister-in-law's memorial service. She is so loved. Funeral is 10 a.m. tomorrow.

TT is very emotional. As eldest of 12 and uncle to 50+, there are so many that love him and he oft does not feel deserving of their affection. He has never been one to stay in touch, call, write, visit. They hang on his attentions. He marvels, wonders and regrets his lack of communication with them all.

As much as I love time alone, I felt lonely today. The quiet was too quiet.

TT's computer stopped working for a few hours, then magically resurfaced. Thank God!

Daughter gave me a lovely pot of tulips for Mother's Day. She and I attended a pool party with dear friends. It was a restful, fun day.

Lappy still in surgery. Back doing better. Missing "real" writing, that magical moment on the front porch with the spring breeze clearing the cobwebs of business out of my brain.

And I miss TT.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

1000 is a lotta people. i m sory u r lonely 4 tt, he seems pretty cool

Furtheron said...

1000 is a lot of people - she must have been a huge personality.

My Mum's funeral was a relatively small affair compared to that - but all the family was there including a couple of my cousins and some very close friends of hers who were there for her in the days and years after my Dad passed away and all us kids moved on to new lives. It was very special for them to be there and for them to remember her. There was even laughter at times about my Mum's devotion to watching tennis during Wimbledon each year. That's how she'd like to be remembered.

Give Tim a hug when you can from me - I know the pain when you lose a close one. I had to watch my wife's pain when her brother suddenly passed away when he was only 21. They never leave but you can and will move on.

Louisiana said...

that is a very large family...good to hear that i'm not the only one that couldn't say no to another babe :)

I'm so sorry there is any need for tears. She sounds so lovely and loved. Your TT sounds very humble. Wonderful people ususally are.

Of course time alone when of choice is great and welcome. When it comes out of these sort of circumstances is painful and hard. I am glad that you and your daughter had a good day to celebrate how wonderful you are.

Best wishes for all. And of course that goes for your friend lappy.
Hugs.

Jada's Gigi said...

Wow 1000! thats a lot of friends...your SIL must have been a special lady. Hard being alone in times like these...praying for your family...

David Tellez said...

Well, maybe seeing all his loved ones again, will help TT reach out to them and regain contact. Because, as I'm sure your sister-in-law's passing away showed, time on this earth is so precious and should not be wasted ignoring those that love us. Hopefully this will be a time he sees that...

Candy Minx said...

Hi Hattigrace, how are you. I hope you're not too lonely today. It will be nice to be at the salon, yes? And soon you will have your lap top and be outside with wine and hubby. Maybe this is a good time to pray and be grateful. You are inspiring me to feel that way.

How about picking up a fun movie, chick flick or something? It might be nice to lay on the couch and escape into a love movie or long beautiful adventure movie like Out Of Africa? Hildago? Or Monster-In-Law, In Her Shoes?

Thinking of you...and listen a little bit about my day to distract you...tonight I am meeting with a few people from an oonline bookclub I have participated with for ten years. I have not met these folks but have been inspired by their wisdom, academic insights and reading recommendations for many years...so this will be a real treat tonight. I would love to meet you sometime. Our internet comings and goings really add such an emotional and intelligent levels of meaning into our lives don't they?

Thinking of you even though we don't really know each other...
Love
Candy

Diane Viere said...

What an amazing person your SIL must have been--1,000+ people! Your family must have been so touched.

Walking through these first weeks of sorrow is difficult. Remember--always--who is holding you and yours; He understands your heart--and will bring your comfort and peace in due time.

God Bless!

Diane

Camie Vog said...

I'm very sorry for your lose, HG. I send love and light your way. Please take care. (I'm sending love and light to the lappie, too.)

Gardenia said...

See you soon. Gosh we've shared much since Jan. 1! Well, may the Holy Spirit hover over all of you, your brother, & the kids, your sister-in-laws folks, as they cope with the loss. Dear Lord, heal hearts, heal hearts! Fill the void with You! Amen.

FOUR DINNERS said...

1000 people!. That's incredible. She was chuffed lookin' down on 'em all I bet. She must've been very special. Bit like HG I think.
C'mon lappy! Get yer act together! HG needs yer!

shellz said...

2300 people at the funeral! That is truly amazing. She must have been well-loved. Her spirit will be with you always!

AnnJay said...

Even in times of difficulty & grief, small miracles happen, just to let you know that Someone KNOWS about you & sees your pain...

FOUR DINNERS said...

2300!!!! Flippin' eck. Hope TT's back ok now.

Jax comp over there is still pendin' British Gymnastics gettin' the money together to send a squad out but if it happens it'll be in Los Angeles end of July. If it happens I'll give yer the dates n if yer can make it I'll sort tickets out n stuff.